pregnancy symptoms

I have been a bit paranoid a couple of times regarding my pregnancy symptoms. I hate it when I feel all these pregnancy symptoms all too much then one day I feel perfectly fine without any tinge of symptom. During those times I can’t help get paranoid and doubt if I was still pregnant. My mind can really go crazy at times. Anyway, what have I been feeling lately? Well, I’m usually very sleepy and lethargic. I would force myself to get out of bed to inject insulin and eat my breakfast then I’d usually go back to bed. I used to program my alarm to go off at 6am for breakfast (just like when i was hoapitalized so i can have snacks at 9 am, lunch at 12 nn, snacks at 3pm, dinner at 6 pm, snacks at 9 pm) but lately I just couldn’t drag myself out of bed and would end up getting up at around 8:30. I still try to eat every 3 hours but i often end up getting so hungry around midnight. I also end up feeling so tired even just after doing some household chores so I would usually try to space them out a bit and take naps every so often. But i know I still need to do a bit of exercising so usually I just do a bit of walking either going to a nearby market or doing grocery shopping. I never experienced throwing up until I was around 10weeks. I thought I wouldn’t go through that phase but I guess I spoke too soon. And unfortunately, my first major barfing episode was when I was cooking adobo which my hubby requested. Unfortunately, my tummy couldn’t handle the smell of adobo, much to me and my husband’s dismay. I had to instruct him to finish cooking and just locked myself in our room so I wouldn’t smell it anymore. He just ended up frying the pork and threw out the sauce so I wouldn’t smell it anymore. I couldn’t bear eating it, good thing we had leftovers of a different viand from lunch. Lately, brushing my teeth has also been triggering my barfing episodes. I really hate the feeling of barfing so I’m hoping by the 2nd trimester I’d graduate from it already. Another major symptom would be the frequent urination. Frequent would be an understatement. I almost go every hour and usually 2-3 times during bed time. I wouldn’t want to refrain from drinking water since I know I have to stay hydrated. It’s just a bit of a discomfort dragging my sluggish self out of bed just to pee. One of the 2 things I hate the most is having those nipples get soooo sore! As in super sensitive in a non-sexual way. Argh! It hurts darn bad! :( Well good thing that the last few days it doesn’t hurt as bad anymore but they just look a bit bigger. Now the other things I hate the most is the getting super constipated. I never experienced this before I got pregnant, especially since I was taking Metformin for my diabetes which makes me prone to pooping 2-4 times a day (usually right after meals!). But lately I’m really having a hard time doing my business and sometimes end up having blood when I do my thing which really scares me a lot. My OB suggested that I eat oatmeal and probably drink cilium fiber to help ease my constipation. Unfortunately I hate those 2. Oatmeals are so bland and I can’t add any sweetener to it. I don’t like drinking cilium as well since I don’t like the taste and I hate the bloating feeling after. Unfortunately too, I can’t eat as much papaya since that would also trigger a high sugar level. I just really need to drink more water and find other alternate foods which are high in fiber. Oh well. Despite all these, I’d still want to think that I’m pretty much doing ok with my pregnancy. I’m lucky enough that I’m a housewife and doesn’t have to drag my sorry ass to work. That would have been much stressful. Atleast I can pace myself and rest whenever I feel the need too. Despite the discomfort these symptoms bring, I’m still thankful that I have them since they just affirm my pregnancy. How I wish I can have an ultrasound whenever I want to just to make sure my baby is doing fine. Well, that would be too costly. I’m slowly but surely learning to trust more in God that He would help us get through this and that I would safely deliver a healthy normal baby.