Halfway through!

I’m on my 20th week already! So near yet so far til the day we can hold you in our arms, our baby wopwop! It’s good that my lower back hasn’t been hurting as much as it used to a few weeks back. But recently I would usually get leg cramps and would often wake up with hands na namamanhid. Paranoid days aren’t over yet. Lots of times I’d end up worrying if our baby is doing alright. I still don’t have a prominent preggy belly, it’s still composed of 2 big flabs. I can’t help but worry if our baby’s growing normally. We’ve been worrying that our baby would grow so big (effect of being a diabetic preggy mom) and would cause caesarian, but now I’m also worrying that he/she might be too small! It doesn’t help that lately I don’t get to feel him/her move too often. Well, not as often as I used to feel him/her. *sigh* I just can’t wait til our next ultrasound next week. The last time we did was during my 8th week. Many times I’ve been tempted to go for one but my OB said that it was unnecessary and I can just wait til I’m around 20 weeks when we can have our congenital anomaly scan. If only ultrasounds are much cheaper, I would have gone behind my OB’s back and have those ultrasounds just to have peace of mind that my baby is doing just fine. We’re really excited with the next ultrasound since that’s the time we would know if our baby wopwop’s a boy or a girl! Hubby wants a boy and I want a girl. But it doesn’t really matter, we only wish that he/she is healthy and normal.